Hey Sarah, how you feel about your body post show can be a struggle. Understand that this is a very common occurrence and that most bodybuilders feel this as well. and we all understand how you feel. That being said, what you’re feeling right now isn’t failure; it’s your body coming back into balance. Change the goal from being shredded, to feeling strong, healthy, and stable. This is how the best in the world approach this aspect of bodybuilding. Maybe this could help you as well Sarah.